Behind the Music: Self Deception
Lyrics:
Keep on running away from anything good for you
You've got to make the lies come true
And you're gonna keep on
Go on, push him away from anything good with you
You cannot lose what you don't...
And what you don't, you don't have to
Love, no one understands the gam you play
Love, you're cold and reckless
Take lots of bets and you pay with sadness
Love, can't you leave me with a single thing?
I walk the fire but you're holding the strings
I'm taking bets on myself or no one
Behind the music:
I've noticed that sometimes the lies I tell myself play on repeat in my head in a never-ending loop. It's like I'm headed down a train track toward an inevitable crash without realizing it. The dangerous part is that in those moments, these lies usually mask another, more damaging lie I don't even realize I'm telling myself. Usually, it's really something like this...
I don't need anyone
I can't trust anyone
God doesn't love me
I can't trust God
Does this ever happen to you? I wrote this song because I was mining the thoughts in my head and, frankly, making fun of myself. I’ve found that when I recognize this, I’m able to snap myself out of it… because I do trust God. I know that He knows and loves me. And even when people or circumstances “fail” me, He will be there. He sends angels in the form of another friend, family member or even a stranger to lift me up that day.